Merry Christmas

Merry merry!

Jolly jolly!

I can't hear the bells this year

Your whispers ate my eardrums

We wish you a merry Christmas!

How I loved the twinkling lights

You wove webs around my lashes

And tattooed a nightmare behind my eyelids

Jolly Night! Holly Night!

The sweet taste of chocolate rot

As soon as it touches my tongue

All my cells turned sin

And my blood into your spit

Happy New Year!

Dare I say it this time?

I can't feel it

Hope and joy

The monster you planted inside of me

Chews at my core

Feeds on my light

Eventually my Soul is gone

I used to love Christmas

Giving, spreading smiles

Now as I wrap my mother's present

The golden ribbon reminds me

Of your hands

Strangling me

You ruined everything

You took my life away

You ruined me

Merry, Merry!

Jolly, Jolly!